This morning I woke up and I saw a mountain
The mountain was literally in front of me,
But I couldn’t see the beauty I was supposed to see
I saw a struggle, I saw a piece of me that needed to be given away in order to see
I saw 25, and most of my wasted time in that mountain
I saw everything I could be, but wasn’t, everything I wanted, but didn’t have
After so long I saw this mountain start to laugh! And I began to grow angry, but mostly sad
How dare this mountain know I failed!
What’s so funny! I yelled, but it only laughed in return
That stupid mountain didn’t understand that I was trying to learn!
I was begging to earn
A place here, or even a spot there, where I could fit,
Where I could sit
Where I could hear
The prayers of my mother for me once I left from under her roof
I craved the proof, of the prayers she’d say
Oh God please tell, what did she say?!
Whisper me the words so that I might make it to the next day
Brake off some of her power and give it to me!
It might help me to see
It would help me win this game that so many lose
Or at the very least give me the strength to make this mountain move!
And then suddenly, its laughing stopped
The heavens opened up, and everything was at a halt
Frozen in this moment, I thought judgment had finally come
I upset him with my ways, and he was finally done
But the skies stayed cleared, and then His voice appeared
“You, do not need your mother,” he said. And then I started to weep.
I was too ashamed to look up, I was weak, but I had to speak
“This mountain I cannot move on my own. And even with everything I feel alone”.
He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
At that I looked up, “certainly, Lord, you can’t mean me. I can’t even see the things I’m supposed to see”
He laughed, like a father laughing at his daughter taking her fist steps, then stumbling back into his hands
“I’m teaching you to observe and obey everything I have commanded you. And surely you know, I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
I took a few second before I looked at that mountain again, but when I did, I felt as if I could win.
“It’s already won,” He said, “Just trust the Father of the Sun”.
So I did, and anytime I come up against anything that says I’ll lose, I remember the mountain that God said I could move.